Yesterday, I lost my mom.
Her last words, before speaking became too difficult, were: “I just want to rest.”
Good night mama, sleep well. I wish you were here.
Creativity is my anchor
If anyone is wondering about the current status of my projects: I am trying to look forward. Music and art are my forms of meditation.
The next album might sound a little sadder—unless I manage to trick your ears well enough. I hope you will enjoy the soul and heart I put into it.
I am thinking about starting to stream soon. However, my dad is sick too. This is why I worked so hard to get things done previously; now, my priority is taking care of him as best as I can.
Things are alright, and they will get better, but this year—2020—can go crash and burn for all I care.
/ Enkeria
Notes on Grief
In going through this, I’ve been reminded that grief hits everyone differently. I wanted to share a few things that are helping me navigate this:
There is no “Right Way”
Some cry, some don’t. Some need to talk, others need silence. I’ve learned that feelings of unreality, anger, and even guilt are all normal reactions.
It affects the body
Grief triggers the same systems in the body as stress. Feeling tired, having trouble sleeping, or physically hurting is part of the process. It’s important to try to eat and sleep on a schedule, even when you don’t want to.
The “Switching” Mode
Research suggests we switch between two modes: one where we are lost in the loss, and one where we focus on the new life without the person. Switching back and forth—sometimes minutes apart—is how we survive it.
If you are going through this too: Be patient with yourself. Don’t isolate yourself. And remember, we simply have to take it one day at a time.
#KeepMovingForward my friends